met michelle at ard 8pm to get her yummylicious smelly beancurd at pasam malam.
well,
its smelly, so i dint bought any.
thinking that it might be smelly and stink the whole bus,
we took a cab back to 110.
bought drinks at cheers and do some transaction at the ATM beside it.
failed attempt, then i walk her home.
then i went back for a 2nd attempt with the help of yanping.
done.
then walk all the way to the further 7-11 to use the AXS for another transaction.
done.
back home.
rot.
continue to rot.
its like a everyday thing.

if im not wrong,
im gg for an interview tml.
nervous!
hopefully i can get the job at baleno for the next 3 mths.
if not i will have to continue rotting at home.

good nights.

went rollerblading @ ecp today with joyc,jean n edwin.
we had fun despite the bad weather!
the weather do sucks.
its my first time getting on the wheel at the park.
i fell on my butt 3times and got 2 small cuts.
i avoided all the humps and walk on grasses.
jean blading style is like walking!
hahah!
joyce is doing fine,
and edwin, our saviour of the day,
he bring us through the humps n slopes!
omg!
and a cute guy working at the rental station(i think angmoh or mixed) helped me with blading up a slope.
whahaha.
im here to haolian to jean n joyce!
cute guy LEI.
thats all for now.

pictures time!

OMG!
its so complicated to do application.
i dont like to do things by myself.
i realised im very dependent on others.
doing application is just so difficult!
ASAP! ASAP!
deadline is meeting alr!
im so damn dead!

woohooo,
feeling like banging my head on the wall!

instead of doing the application for NUS and SIM,
i editting a new blogskin.
wahhaha.
i think its nice.
i will continue with the application thing tonight.

rotting my ass off.
just keep rotting.
rotting rocks!

things that i think i will have to do tml:
go town to fill up application forms.
go to AXS machine to pay up for the application fees.

i think la.

//laters

22nd:
i forgot what had happened?

23rd:
went to work.
its a different experience.
packed goodie bags n stuff.
and seen alot of ugly truth and ppl(not physically) in this ugly world.
fugly.
and yes.
somebody psed me for the work.
well, so much of your effort to trigger my angry cell.
thanks.

24th:
woke up at 11+am thinking that i shld turn up for my class outing.
this time round just more of hanging out with sherine
and dint really spend much time with the others.
but nonetheless,
its an enjoyable trip with you guys (:
heres the pics on our way back to departure center:










hopefully i will get my stuff done soon so i can hang out more often without worries.

because of you; so much misery.



im bored.

ohhh.
to continue from what im trying to say ytd.
its not exactly a big deal.
but its not as easy as it seems.
its not just abt coming out.
but getting ALL your friends to accept you for who you are.
and thats the difficult part.


went to gym with joyce n jean today!
was super late!




after working out, we went to eat mac -.-
its like,
such a wasted trip.
talk abt the past..
i miss sec sch!
LOL.
then me n joyce proceed to yck swimming complex while jean headed to sch.
to our horror!
SJI has booked the competition pool from 12 to 6.
nabei.
we alr paid for the entrance tix.
forget it.
thinking we cld just try to swim.
then these boys started to flood the other pool after their compition.
like,
-.-
we gave up.
bathed n headed to joyce's place to rot.



teached her how to edit photos size with paint.
watched scv!
damn high!
then finally the joyce has to leave the hse.
went pasam malam again to get junk food!
walk all the way home from khatib.
sweat like a pig.
but woohoo,
i feel good!
recieved a call from mervyn while i was in the lift,
but sorry eh,
i just reach home!

okay,
this is my new hair without wax:

SHANE is just so perfect!
in every way u look at her..
just..
perfect..
whahaha..

im being lame.
ignore me.


went out to rot with szelee during the late late late evening.
shes the only and best reason i can give my mum to sneak out of the hse to breathe the fresh air outside.
cos shes my cousin!
wahhaha.
saw kahsiong on the train at yck station.
i must admit, he's damn good-looking.
talk to him for awhile then i alighted at amk.
went to explore amk hub.
had anderson ice cream.
continue to explore amk hub.
saw kaya,gh n xl!
long time no see girls!
how dare you, never jio me!!!!!!
TSK!
then continue to explore amk hub.
went amk mac.
had OREO CHEESECAKE.
shi shiok de lor!
went voiddeck to puff puff!
wahhaha.
went home,
wash away the wax on my hair.
went for supper at 110 with my old kahkis,
mic jo n rachel.
had a good luff at rachel's fall!
FUNNY!
continue to rot awhile at void deck.
guess straights girls are always confused over the labels and practically know very little ard the *ehem* other world.
please be sensitive with the use of words!
ha.

gg gym tml morning with joyce and jean.
time to go to bed.
nights.

met the limbang gang on the 17th.
pooled
makaned
rotted.


2 pics at the pool centre.
wl n yanping's playing pool and kevin reached there quite late.



met jo on the 18th.
accompanied her to take i/c photos.
bought wax and magazines.
ate at ljs.
those bungs look at her like shes some freak,
excuses me,
you girls are the same species too okay!
went back chongpang.
tranfer money.
cut hair

new hair:




then went back to rachel's hse.
rotted.
watched tv.
used comp.
went home.
bathed.
met june.
she wanted to do her work at mac.
its alr near 12mn.
we left at ard 1+ am.
got super freak-out by the sicky feeling after the 2nd stick.
cabbed home when its just a few blocks away.
nearly died.



went out with miang, kr, huat, sw n terry.
met the girls n huat to pc first.
so happy to see joylene again.
n so happy that no need to see alvin alr.
too bad raymond not there le.
then went bishan.
caught the messenger.
not bad.

im freaking pissed!
i hate sch.
i hate to study.
i hate.
but well as much as i hate it.
i still have to do it.

gwenyth: you saw my mum? she dint tell me lei. ermm, currently enroling into nyp, have yet to register for any uni, but gg to do it by this week i guess. everything is still okay, just felt kinda troublesome to go through all the details on the enrolment package and registration website.

sisi, sher, yvette: really hope to see you guys this sat, i will try my best to turn up, cos im seriously broke, im not too sure if i still can afford to even travel. i will try not to stingy, i will try very hard.

CGY: I WANT MAHJONG but no money lei!!!

for the past few days,
i've been hanging out and rushing back to my granduncle's wake in the evening.
and back to hanged out after the ritual late in the night
tml's the last day.
guess will just feel she bu de cos another person is leaving this world.
:(



rachel,
theres many thing i dont know how to say to u in person.
so here it is:

i also hope you will xin fu.
but i really dont quite get it how u trust somebody who u barely know in such a short time.
i shall not deny that he is quite a nice person when we hang out.
but u will never know anyone inside out.
thats the word: NEVER.
or maybe,
im just a very insecured person.
i dont trust, esp GUYS, so easily.
probabaly,
we're just different in handling things.
very different.
sorry for showing no interest in hearing u n his story ytd.
i believe we all are old enough to take care of myself
and i believe u trust ur intuiation more than what all of us have tried to warn you abt guys(basically just any guys out there, not pin-point to anyone).
so now just pray hard he's not another one like them okay.
i do care, but for r/s kinda thing, i dont think i shld interfere much.
i believe i've done my part right?


probably its just me.
hopefully my worries are nothing.


its gg to be 4am.
time for bed.
nights.

spent my wholeday out at yishun!
hang out with my darlings minus huilin.
hang out with cousinabby and tonghuimin and also the giordano staffs.
visit my granduncle's wake.
rot off my butt.
but its a long day.
rejected mic for the yishun damn trip.
saw yuhchu! super happy (high sial!)
saw sherwin,damine,ahneh! super happy also (damn damn high!).
thou we're not close alr,
but just feel so ecstatic to see them ard, alive n kicking!

gg off to do maths,
tml's another long day.

monday, 12/03/07



acc yp for hairshow casting audition.
hangout at ps.
waited for shendia to knock off and june to arrive.



went cine to take neoprints
took MRT home.
planned to stay over at yp's hse.
but my mum disagreed
and she happens to have headaches.
so everything was cancelled.


today 13/03/07

taught my cousin some maths in the morning/noon.
michelle smsed me at ard 2plus.
met up for late lunch with jonic and her.
have the express-dunno-dunno what.
hotplate thingy.
was so bloated after that.
bought 200g of gummies and munch on it again,
also bought 100g of candies for tonghuimin and those guys working over there.
went funland to play photohunt and wordsearch.
so exciting!
wahhahah!
so it was raining,
we decided to continue rotting at BK.



went home after the rain stopped.
grabbed some books and went over to my grandma's hse.
headed to ttsh to visit my granduncle.
i dont like to be there.
as in i dont like to see ppl gg thru the pain or losing/almost losing someone so close to them.
its painful.
hais,
then headed back to grandma hse,
take note of what my cousin is learning on amaths,
so i can guide him when he dont know how to do his sum.
walked home alone.
rotting now..
like ROT..
smelly alr....
continue rottting...
just rot....
ROT!

thanks for the tags friends!
but im still very STRESS over the fucking matter.
haha!

TANKAIYAN : I MISS YOU LEI, CAN WE F**KING MEET UP?!
NSF: YOU GY? O.o
YVETTEBABY & SHER: i will try to turn up. im f**King broke now, so sorry!
KAT: ive linked you alr (:

freaking stress.
feel like banging my head onto the wall alr.
i just dont like the path which ever god has planned for me.
its giving a hard time to make difficult decisions.
and im not good at making fuck up decision like this.
and nobody could understand.
being caught at this fucking situation.
its just totally fuck up.

probably just meant to be screwed up.

FUCK.

有些事，看清了，就不该再执著。

lazy to blog.
i quit the job after 2 days.
im bored.

i DONT like shane-wannabe.
trying too hard.

start work today again,
at yishun atrium.
first day of work and they extended my time.
totally wth.
and whats surprised me was that its an all guy atrium.
hais.
but nvm,
i changed my tml shift to morning.
gg home to SLEEP.

still dont know where to head to.
its irritating.

the difference in treatment btw a babe and me?
-shake head-
only if im born pretty.

ytd acc yvette back to sch to take her result slip.
headed down to town.
then acc yvette for a haircut at highest.
NICENICE!
drank bubble tea.
took neoprints.
rush down to meet michelle at bishan.
rot at bishan.
came back yishun to meet rachel.
bought black hair dye,
helped kitmun with DAE and stuff.
went home.
slept early.

super confused on where to head next.
i wanted to go poly.
and im actually being posted to nyp business management.
but my parents want me to continue in uni with any degree.
just any degree cert will do.
but that's not what i wanted.
so shld i still live under everyone's shadown or shld i start making decision for myself.
seriously,
i have no confidence with my choice either.
-pouts-

am awake since 11.35pm last night.
woohoo!
still enduring!
wake up for supper with rachel n jonic.
chatted at voiddeck till 4.30am.
went home.
smsed with yuanping.
then she called.
hope she will feel better soon.
life goes on babe!
just went for breakfast with my parents.

ENDURE!
HAHA!

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very lazy to wait for the girls to send me photos alr,
decided to blog with what i have.

28th march:
abbytay,tonghuimin,jonictan came to stay over!
so happy tgt!

1st march:
went town with ohyuanping.
supposed to meet her at 2 or 3
but end up we only met at 7+pm.
she wanted to sing K but i dont have the "feel"
haha.
so we had dinner tgt, took neoprints and waited for daphne to drop by.
after daphne reached,
went back to cine cos we thot of taking another neoprints,
but the shop was closed,
so we walked over to starbucks for potatoes salad, newyork cheesecake and mango frap.
small chats.
headed home with daphne.


neoprints


daphne putting on lipgloss


mirror mirror on the wall


me and daph :D


me acting cute


us (:


mirror again


potatoesaldcheesecakemangofrap


=D

2nd march:
took back my result.
CCE C6
hanging in the air.
was indifferent abt it anyway.
went home and sleep.
wake up to acc mum for dinner.
as usual, after dinner i rot and rot and ROT.
so i was late for cny visiting at jean's place.
wahahah.
therefore no mahjong!
boohoo!


jean and me, before changing



getting ready for DXO


jean acting cute!


ready to go! :D


in DXO.